Life has continued its course with little magnificance...
I'm back in school for my final semester before getting my Master's. Work is hectic and my supervisor role has become all the more demanding. My kids are growing fast and I can feel old age (26 currently) setting in. The only consistent thing is that food still tastes great!
My OBEs have been very few in the past months. Maybe my stress level is down, or maybe I am finding more time to rest. However, even now, my eyelids are heavy. Sleep has been filled with dreams of past people and past events. On the off chance, I have dreamed of a couple of new people which I eagerly await to meet. Hope they are real.
I find myself getting more and more bored with the routine and style of this life. Can we not have a zombie apocalypse already? Maybe that seems a little extreme, but it would be somewhat fun - you have to admit.
Just shoot me a line. Maybe I will check it before 6 months passes.
2.02.2011
6.04.2010
Additional OBEs and Aliens?
I had another three OBE experiences last month after the 6th. The last one involved me seeing aliens, which kind of weirded me out. However, it has sent me on a quest of researching the Sumarian culture and the history of aliens (which people have speculated upon). I have to say that I have enjoyed myself so far. But, I am curious. What does everyone else think about the existence of aliens?
I also recently watched The Fourth Kind. It is supposedly based off of actual events in Nome, Alaska that suggests alien abductions. I actually enjoyed the movie, despite the negative articles I have read related to it. Besides, it had good ole' Milla Jovovich (so talented and intelligent) - which made the film a worthwhile member of my home movie collection. I say, if you have not seen it than watch it...late at night....with the lights off. Oh yes, you will get the chills.
Cheers.
I also recently watched The Fourth Kind. It is supposedly based off of actual events in Nome, Alaska that suggests alien abductions. I actually enjoyed the movie, despite the negative articles I have read related to it. Besides, it had good ole' Milla Jovovich (so talented and intelligent) - which made the film a worthwhile member of my home movie collection. I say, if you have not seen it than watch it...late at night....with the lights off. Oh yes, you will get the chills.
Cheers.
5.06.2010
Catching Up
Life has been so busy...I guess I drifted away from blogging regularly. I did not even realize it until google sent me a flyer in the mail for advertising on my blog. I guess the biggest news is that my son is going to be born tomorrow some time. This will be my 4th kiddo, and I cannot wait to meet the little guy.
In the past couple of months, I have made a couple leaps with my OBEs. I had one where I fully came out of my body, and literally shifted through Astral Planes. I really don't have any other way of describing it. There were lots of shadows, and 'people' moving around, and then I was around lots of corpses, and next thing I knew, I was standing in front of two giant golden gates. During the experience, I thought I was at heaven. But, later on, I researched and found that people who have OBEs don't consider this place heaven but just a higher astral plane. Nevertheless, it was extremely peaceful there and the bright light that came from the gates filled me with happiness before I returned to my physical body.
My last OBE attempt was about a week ago, but I could not keep myself out of my body. I kept shifting back everytime I pulled away. I just couldn't stay focused enough to do it.
Well. I am off of here. I will try to start blogging more, but with the new baby, it is only going to get busier.
Cheers.
In the past couple of months, I have made a couple leaps with my OBEs. I had one where I fully came out of my body, and literally shifted through Astral Planes. I really don't have any other way of describing it. There were lots of shadows, and 'people' moving around, and then I was around lots of corpses, and next thing I knew, I was standing in front of two giant golden gates. During the experience, I thought I was at heaven. But, later on, I researched and found that people who have OBEs don't consider this place heaven but just a higher astral plane. Nevertheless, it was extremely peaceful there and the bright light that came from the gates filled me with happiness before I returned to my physical body.
My last OBE attempt was about a week ago, but I could not keep myself out of my body. I kept shifting back everytime I pulled away. I just couldn't stay focused enough to do it.
Well. I am off of here. I will try to start blogging more, but with the new baby, it is only going to get busier.
Cheers.
2.12.2010
Going Back in Time
I was talking with my work fellows last night how I would like to go back in time to when I was 17 and graduated from high school. How I would have done things so much differently than I had. Someone responded, "Yeah, I would have taken life more seriously" - and my response was, "Well, I would have taken it far more not seriously."
Maybe I would have actually headed to LA to live on the streets and coffee shops. I would have explored the world, been more adventurous. I would have avoided girlfriends, I would have forgotten about trying to find love, I would have not cared about being a father and a family, and I would have shrugged off responsibility.
Sounds sad, I know. But, I'd be happier I think. But, who knows...the grass is always greener, right?
Cheers.
Maybe I would have actually headed to LA to live on the streets and coffee shops. I would have explored the world, been more adventurous. I would have avoided girlfriends, I would have forgotten about trying to find love, I would have not cared about being a father and a family, and I would have shrugged off responsibility.
Sounds sad, I know. But, I'd be happier I think. But, who knows...the grass is always greener, right?
Cheers.
2.09.2010
Hoopla and Fizzniggits
Quick book update. I have finally finished the gruelling chapter of five. Goodness me, that was a rough spot to get through. But, now that I have done it, I feel the surge of creative juices beginning to flow again. Every time I write, Chapter 5 is always one of the most difficult chapters. It's like the turning point of the story or something for me, and it always tries to distract me from the book's main plot. Gotcha this time, punk.
In other news, I bought cable this weekend...That is right. For the first time in six and a half years, I am watching television again. Hardly even know what to say, but if that is not weird enough - get this. I watched the superbowl too! This will be the 2nd super bowl I have ever seen in my life. Really, I did not find it that exciting...it did pass the time however.
I found these audio tapes from the Monroe Institute that I have been listening to as well to help me fall deeper into this Paranormal stuff. I have not had any sort of sleep interruption since I started them, however. So, I am questioning their validity. Nevertheless, I do find myself awfully relaxed after listening to them which generally places me in a very positive mood. I have easily accomplished the Focus 10. The Focus 12 does not really detail what it is suppose to be, but I think that I am there as well. I know this does not make any sense if you have not done the tapes yourself, but apparently there is a large following. It essentially trains you to train your mind to experience different levels of consciousness and thus different realities. It is like being hypnotized or doing visualization exercises for relaxation.
Besides that, life is just going on. Two of my kids are in school every day. My youngest son is currently passed out next to me on the sofa, and is looking as adorable as ever. And, I am going to get rolling on Chapter 6 because all of my homework is complete.
Cheers.
In other news, I bought cable this weekend...That is right. For the first time in six and a half years, I am watching television again. Hardly even know what to say, but if that is not weird enough - get this. I watched the superbowl too! This will be the 2nd super bowl I have ever seen in my life. Really, I did not find it that exciting...it did pass the time however.
I found these audio tapes from the Monroe Institute that I have been listening to as well to help me fall deeper into this Paranormal stuff. I have not had any sort of sleep interruption since I started them, however. So, I am questioning their validity. Nevertheless, I do find myself awfully relaxed after listening to them which generally places me in a very positive mood. I have easily accomplished the Focus 10. The Focus 12 does not really detail what it is suppose to be, but I think that I am there as well. I know this does not make any sense if you have not done the tapes yourself, but apparently there is a large following. It essentially trains you to train your mind to experience different levels of consciousness and thus different realities. It is like being hypnotized or doing visualization exercises for relaxation.
Besides that, life is just going on. Two of my kids are in school every day. My youngest son is currently passed out next to me on the sofa, and is looking as adorable as ever. And, I am going to get rolling on Chapter 6 because all of my homework is complete.
Cheers.
2.03.2010
Short Post
It is nice and brisk outside. I like it.
Today is my 3-year-old son's first day at preschool, which is actually at the regular school. This means he gets to ride the big bus all the way there, and then ride the short bus back home around 11:30 AM. Yeah, it's half days.
Nevertheless, I am excited for him and his new spiderman backpack - which he is overjoyed about. Pretty darn cute if you ask me. I hope his 6-year-old sister is a good role model for him on the bus.
But, that means that I get a few hours every morning with just my 2-year-old son. Hopefully, that means extra time to work on the book. But...we'll see.
Cheers.
Today is my 3-year-old son's first day at preschool, which is actually at the regular school. This means he gets to ride the big bus all the way there, and then ride the short bus back home around 11:30 AM. Yeah, it's half days.
Nevertheless, I am excited for him and his new spiderman backpack - which he is overjoyed about. Pretty darn cute if you ask me. I hope his 6-year-old sister is a good role model for him on the bus.
But, that means that I get a few hours every morning with just my 2-year-old son. Hopefully, that means extra time to work on the book. But...we'll see.
Cheers.
1.29.2010
OBE and the Paranormal
I use to sleep walk when I was a child, and it is my hunch that I had sleep terrors or night terrors as well, but I am not for certain. When I was fourteen-years-old, I started experiencing sleep paralysis, hypnogogic hallucinations and lucid dreaming. Of course, at the time, I had no idea to coin any of these terms with what I was going through. Within the first ten to fifteen minutes of me 'falling asleep' my mind was still awake and my spiritual self was no longer attached to my body. There appears to be more and more research being done on this front, but to date, there is no true explanation or medical treatment to cure this phenomenon.
For anyone that has had hypnogogic hallucinations during sleep paralysis, you understand how frightening these can be at first (or even second, third, fourth, etc.). In medieval times, this use to be called old hag syndrome because there was the belief that a spritual succubus, relentless evil woman, or any type of demon would come and sit on top of the victim, draining their life energy from them. There have also been some accounts in the middle east of it being called psychic vampirism, for those vampires that feed off of energy instead of blood. Nevertheless, I did not know these things either when the experiences started. I just thought I was possessed by demons that I often seen in my hallucinations.
For the sake of brevity, let me give a sample of what may occur:
You are laying in bed, breathing deeply trying to fall asleep. Slowly, your body seems to melt away and then you feel what seems to be an electrical current popping in your head. Your senses literally shake, much like the sound of a old television first turning on and trying to bring up a picture. Then, a strong wind (and I mean extremely strong) rushes around your body and presses down on your chest. This might take your breath away at first, but soon you learn to breathe calmly through it. This is followed by audio hallucinations, the roaring of trains, gunfire sounding, screaming of people dying, angry voices yelling; sometimes it is just one or the other, other times it is a mixture of all the above. If you choose to open your eyes, you may have strange shadows lurking over you, dark eyes searching you. Or, it could be a woman with sharpened fangs howling in your face. It could be any number of beasts or demons, or long dead corpses wielding chainsaws and screaming your name. I long ago learned it was best to keep my eyes steadily shut. You may try to scream or turn away, but your body is completely paralyzed. And although you can hear the people in your house talking, or the fan blowing in the room, or feel the person at your side fast asleep - you cannot alert anyone in the real world. You are trapped for minutes at a time, which feels indefinitely longer. When you finally make your brain recognize what is happening, your spiritual self reconnects with your body, and you jerk to full alert, yelling or gasping deeply, and feeling completely rested.
I have went through this off and on for the past 12 years. Sometimes it was as infrequent as once a month. Or, like this month, it may be every three days or so. It is usually brought on by a lack of sleep or an increase in stress levels. Recently, I have learned to induce the experience though without having either.
You may ask why I would want to do this. Well, a week ago, the whole thing started, but instead of going through the usual hypnogogic hallucinations, I completely separated from my physical body. I pulled away and a full out-of-body experience (OBE). I was in my room, looking around and checking things out - fully conscious of my surroundings - while my physical self was fast asleep on the bed. I did not leave my bedroom, but I am told that once accomplishing this feat, one can travel anywhere in the world in a matter of moments like a ghost or even travel time and other planes of existence. I am interested to find the truth in those statements.
Cheers.
For anyone that has had hypnogogic hallucinations during sleep paralysis, you understand how frightening these can be at first (or even second, third, fourth, etc.). In medieval times, this use to be called old hag syndrome because there was the belief that a spritual succubus, relentless evil woman, or any type of demon would come and sit on top of the victim, draining their life energy from them. There have also been some accounts in the middle east of it being called psychic vampirism, for those vampires that feed off of energy instead of blood. Nevertheless, I did not know these things either when the experiences started. I just thought I was possessed by demons that I often seen in my hallucinations.
For the sake of brevity, let me give a sample of what may occur:
You are laying in bed, breathing deeply trying to fall asleep. Slowly, your body seems to melt away and then you feel what seems to be an electrical current popping in your head. Your senses literally shake, much like the sound of a old television first turning on and trying to bring up a picture. Then, a strong wind (and I mean extremely strong) rushes around your body and presses down on your chest. This might take your breath away at first, but soon you learn to breathe calmly through it. This is followed by audio hallucinations, the roaring of trains, gunfire sounding, screaming of people dying, angry voices yelling; sometimes it is just one or the other, other times it is a mixture of all the above. If you choose to open your eyes, you may have strange shadows lurking over you, dark eyes searching you. Or, it could be a woman with sharpened fangs howling in your face. It could be any number of beasts or demons, or long dead corpses wielding chainsaws and screaming your name. I long ago learned it was best to keep my eyes steadily shut. You may try to scream or turn away, but your body is completely paralyzed. And although you can hear the people in your house talking, or the fan blowing in the room, or feel the person at your side fast asleep - you cannot alert anyone in the real world. You are trapped for minutes at a time, which feels indefinitely longer. When you finally make your brain recognize what is happening, your spiritual self reconnects with your body, and you jerk to full alert, yelling or gasping deeply, and feeling completely rested.
I have went through this off and on for the past 12 years. Sometimes it was as infrequent as once a month. Or, like this month, it may be every three days or so. It is usually brought on by a lack of sleep or an increase in stress levels. Recently, I have learned to induce the experience though without having either.
You may ask why I would want to do this. Well, a week ago, the whole thing started, but instead of going through the usual hypnogogic hallucinations, I completely separated from my physical body. I pulled away and a full out-of-body experience (OBE). I was in my room, looking around and checking things out - fully conscious of my surroundings - while my physical self was fast asleep on the bed. I did not leave my bedroom, but I am told that once accomplishing this feat, one can travel anywhere in the world in a matter of moments like a ghost or even travel time and other planes of existence. I am interested to find the truth in those statements.
Cheers.
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