It is, indeed, the 31st of December. I almost had decided to skip the posting for the day, and let it meander off into oblivion, but alas, my fingers felt the need to type something onto the computer screen. This day is infamous in America for new beginnings, a day for leaving the old self, things, habits behind, and also, a day for the youngish to have a wild night of debauchery and promiscuity. We surely have all been there, have we not?
The Past Ten Years
At this time last year, I was filing for divorce from the woman I had been married to for 4 1/2 years, and in a relationship with for over 6. A woman, that had brought my life a great deal of pain and heartache. In addition, I had just watched my parents divorce a couple weeks prior than the time I had filed. Things were uneasy and strange, but there was also an ounce of comfort in the decision made.
Two years ago and Three years ago, I was hosting a small, safe haven for teens at my house to come and have good Christian fun on New Year's Eve to keep them out of harm's way and away from the perils of life. I was teaching youth group at the church, and was a strong Christian leader.
Four and Five years ago, I was engaging in those perils with large groups of friends - enjoying the craziness of alcohol and sex intertwined.
Six and Seven years ago, it was a group of friends just chilling with Mountain Dew and Monty Python.
Eight and Nine years ago, it was bonfires at the pond, hotdogs, and friends counting down the minutes to the New Year.
And Ten years ago, I had the dream that a high school friend died in a drunk car crash, to only wake up and find out that it was true New Year's morning.
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Tonight, I am going to call it a short night. I am going to be the Emperor of my own domain. I am going to leave the captivating memories of the past slip away into a dilapidated, empty jail cell. I am going to start afresh with my intelligent, humorous, and beautiful woman that I have the pleasure to sleep next to every night. I am going to make my own future, leave the past in the past. I am going to finally embrace the inner ambition that has been stifled for so long. I am going to be successful. And, I am not going to wait for tomorrow to start...because I already began days ago.
Hope you all have a night that you can cherish in your memories. Be wise in how you choose to spend it and who you spend it with, just as you choose in every moment of your life.
Cheers.
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wow. wake up call.
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in my excitment of going out for new years with my friends (as silly as this sounds i've never done that, it has always been with my family) I had forgotten the dangers that come with it. =/
so, thanks. now i have to see if were going to cab it, or get a responsible driver to come with us. ;P
but, seriously, i wish you a happy new year, and good luck with your coming successes!